grudge
This term captures a specific type of long-term emotional baggage, where a person refuses to let go of a past injury. It differs from simple anger or annoyance by its persistence and the internal decision to maintain a state of resentment. It often implies a silent, simmering hostility rather than an open conflict.
When used as a verb, the word shifts from an emotional state to an act of reluctance. It describes the psychological friction felt when parting with money, time, or praise. This usage emphasizes a sense of scarcity or a belief that the recipient does not deserve the item being given.
Meanings
A persistent feeling of ill will or resentment toward someone resulting from a perceived wrong.
He has held a grudge against his former boss for years.
To give or concede something reluctantly or with resentment.
She grudged every penny she had to spend on the repair.
Phrasal Verbs
grudge away
to continue to feel resentment over a long period of time
He continued to grudge away at the decision long after everyone else had moved on.